Welcome to the GIFT of LIFE!!!
To Live is to Change; To Accept Change is to GROW!!!
This July I had the blessing to journey to Kazakhstan for an International Seminar!! This opportunity afforded many opportunities to expand my edges and created much discomfort along the way!!
So you may ask, “Why Kazakhstan, why now?”
Great question!!! To be honest when this opportunity presented itself Kazakhstan was a mystery, like I didn’t even know where it was on the map, let alone did I know a single thing about this place….so why travel there??
For almost three years now I have been working closely with a group of Siberian Shamans who travel many countries all over the world bringing with them ancient feminine wisdom and practices to awaken the feminine energy of our collective consciousness. this began when my dear sister Beth invited me to an evening workshop in Boulder, CO, USA. I went to the workshop unsure of what I would find there, but open to having a new experience.
For as long as I can remember I have been fascinated by the realm of Shamanism and working with elemental wisdom so it was not a big stretch for me to explore this work. Long story short, my first experience in these teachings brought me great joy and much to ponder in my reality. I went to a second workshop a few months later and at that moment felt a deeper connection. It was then that I began to sponsor and host Diana Suemi and Shakuntali Siberia to come to Wyoming to present their workshops and seminars in my home state and community.
Each step of the way I was opened to practices that allowed me to explore more deeply my own feminine wisdom and make transformative decisions for my practice and my family. Each time I met with the Shamans (Tutors) I grew into more of my Self and began to see more possibilities for my every day life.
This year I had the pleasure of hosting Shakuntali in March and again in June. This was more involved than I had felt in the past energetically. I began to feel a thread of my purpose, my predestination in the connection with Shakuntali and her teachings and was forming a deeper relationship with the practices as they became more integrated into my daily Do’s.
I knew about the annual International Seminars, and knew other people that had attended in past years that had major transformation as a result. A big piece of me felt the deep curiosity and pull to attend and at the same time I felt all of the logistical limitations;; money, time, fear, needing a passport (I had never even left the country) ect. Questions like, “How can I leave my family, my work? How can I afford this? Am I safe? Where the heck is Kazakhstan?” and on and on.
So my first obstacle to overcome was TO SAY YES!!! At first I was a hard NO, because that made sense logically. Then my dear friend and travel companion, Amy, said to me, “What if you are not going for YOU….what if you are going for everyone you love; for everyone who can’t or won’t go for themselves?” That struck a deep cord of recognition in my SOUL.
I didn’t know HOW, and didn’t even really know my WHY….and then…. I SAID YES! That yes opened the door for my Soul to conspire for my ability to blast off and make the steps!! It was no coincidence that my family had just taken the steps to acquire our passport documents this year and that they came in the mail in May:: Obstacle removed!!!
So on July 5th I went into the garage and told my husband, “I will go to Kazakhstan…I dont know how I will pay for the trip, but if it pans out I will be going.” He looked at me like I was nuts; just like everyone else in my life did!!! If I am being honest, I also though I was nuts but I had a VISION and I had BELIEF.
The next obstacle was the financial aspect. With no savings to speak of and no real means to gather the necessary $4000 in two weeks time to make this trip fly and I was seeded in nothing but FAITH. I was a ball of excitement and anxiety navigating the waters of Destiny!!! It was at that moment that a dear friend offered to loan me the money for the plane tickets which were due THAT DAY!!!! With much resistance and a good dose of FEAR (how will I pay this back? Do I deserve this gift?) I swallowed my pride and said THANK YOU. And that started the ball rolling….now I was committed:: Non refundable tickets for a 4874mile destination to somewhere on the other side of the planet!!!!
I knew now that my work was to lean into asking for support. I turned to a mentor of mine and asked for financial support to grow my experience in my ministry. I got my first YES and the suggestion to create a Go Fund Me. This was chilly water for me…Giving is my Jam!!! Receiving was a bit harder…again I was afforded the opportunity (=obstacle) to ASK for what I needed and then let it go to FAITH. I swallowed my ego and pride once more and put out the request to gather funds to help me on this pilgrimage. I was overwhelmed by the community response as I reached my Goal BEFORE my due date from the gracious donations of 30 blessed Souls.
It was happening. I was taking my FIRST INTERNATIONAL trip half way around the world to study with the oldest school of Shamanism on the planet. I was going to meet 150 people from 20 countries to pray and connect with this ancient wisdom. I WAS ALIVE, and READY to meet the biggest challenge of my life (so far) and was doing so with the support of mentors, clients, students and friends of my community. MIRICLES HAPPEN!!!
Asking for Community Support
Farthest Trip From Home
First International Travel
First time flying over an ocean
Fist time using a Subway
First time using a passport
First time going through Customs
First time in NYC
First Time in Moscow
First Time in Kazakhstan
First International Seminar
First Experience with Women form 20 Countries
First time handling International Exchange Rates
So as you can see my edges were expanding exponentially.
What I learned:::
I can not even begin to know all that I have gained from this experience so soon after getting home, but I know this….
I am stronger than I have ever given myself credit for. FAITH can and will move mountains and oceans. When we speak from the heart language is not a barrier. No matter where we come from or where we are going HOME is INSIDE. Fear is natural but is NOT our Natural state of BEING. Family has no boarders. LOVE has no LIMITS. Our connections of SPIRIT are stronger and more reliable than the internet. Rocks look the same even on the other side of the planet. There are MANY names for the same concepts. TRUTH is UNIVERSAL. I AM LIMITLESS and SO ARE YOU!!! We die little deaths and are reborn in every moment and resistance is futile.
What we resist persits. What we accept evolves. People from all parts of the world have similar struggles. You are not the same person when you come home if you surrender to the process. Every moment has pupose. Everything and Everyone is a teacher.
In conclusion(for now) this trip has changed me forever. It has helped me recognize empowerment -vs- co dependency. It has taught me that my TRUTH is inside of ME and YOURS is INSIDE of YOU. I have learned that each obstacle is here to show me more…More FREEDOM, more JOY, more ABUNDACE, more PERSEVERANCE, more CHARACTOR, more EXPANSION and more reasons TO HELP OTHERS.